PRACTISING PROCRASTINATION FOR A YEAR

Twelve months into 2022, I made myself the biggest fool I can make of myself. lt felt great if you wonder.

So.

The end of the year is near.

This year had taught me a lot, but if I had to describe this year in three words, then it would be simple for me- procrastination, imagination, and confusion.

I started of my year in my boarding school away from the digital world reading books and drafting plans to start what I had in mind. There were a ton of books that I read this year hoping they had all the answers that I needed to get started and would prove to be the best guides.

Three months into this year I was sitting in my room one night with a blank screen of my laptop staring at me.

After half a year elapsed, I was sitting in my room one night with a blank screen of my laptop staring back at me and glass of juice beside that.

And I had only one thought in my mind. What the fuck just happened?

I spent all my energy and time behind the work I had in mind for three whole months. I never got the results I thought I would get. The stats page was a straight line with a few interruptions none of which indicated anything above twenty.

And this was not the case that happened once. But all the times.

First, I started blog on Instagram and the only thing I got were bots sending me promotion offers. Second, third and the rest were neither fruitful.

Then I thought of gaining practical knowledge. I applied for internships. I got selected at four out of the first ten I applied. Those book tips did some help.

Out of those four, I was working at only one of them. That too for one month only.

Oh yeah! Extremely sorry!! I forgot to mention something. I did another thing during the first six month to a limited extent. Procrastinate.

And then for the rest of the year; procrastination was all I did.

Thinking now, I know how good I am to make a fool of myself.

All those books gifted me with knowledge and answers to questions I did not even know. It was like having the book for high school exam while you just started middle school.

So where was I?

Oh, right. I am yet to start.

But yeah. I suck at commitment. That's one thing I have to change.

Now what was this post for?

I hope I would know too.

Regards.